It took forever to get a graphic into my journal entry tonight. This is not the one that I had orginally wanted but for some reason it would just come up with a red x whenever I tried to add something. Oh well this one will do just fine for now.
I have not had a good week so far. I had a pain in my left side Friday all day and I couldn't figure out what in the world it was so I just ignored it since I had a party to throw. It didn't bother me to much on Saturday, I was to busy to care. Sunday it was bad and Monday at work it was even worse. I made a dr. appoinment to find out what was going on! She sent me straight to the emergency room. Seriously not what I wanted to do with my evening. I was there for 10 hours! I have had problems (female things ya know) for years. I had a hysterectomy 6 years ago but they left my ovaries so I wouldn't go into menopause. Four years ago they had to take the right ovary because scar tissue had wrapped around it and it was painful. Well guess what happened again to the left side now??? I do not want to lose this ovary. I do not want to go into menopause. I do not want to be in pain either. UGH. I am so sick of having all this medical stuff happen to me! Sometimes I feel like a hypocondriac. They sent me home with pain meds and told me that I needed to call my gyn asap and see what she wanted to do about it. I didn't call today. I am still deciding if I want to live with the pain or if I want to go though menopause. Neither choice is what I want.
Tomorrow (well I guesss it would be today now) I am taking John out to Aquanis college to discuss the scholarship offer they are giving him and to see the campus. We will be meeting the cross county coach also. Although I am very excited for this opportunity for John I am scared to. John and Josh are my babies and the thought of them leaving is about to drive me nuts. I am still having a hard time with Rob being gone and I think he is mad at me for calling him 6 times today to see how he is!
Sometimes being a Mom is really hard. I don't want to let them go but I don't want them here forever either. Wow I am having alot of mind battles today! I think I need to go to sleep and try to think about everything with a clearer head. I know my problems seem trivial compared to what others here in jland are going though and I am sorry for whining!!! Have a great night