Tuesday, July 10, 2007

It took forever to get a graphic into my journal entry tonight.  This is not the one that I had orginally wanted but for some reason it would just come up with a red x whenever I tried to add something.  Oh well this one will do just fine for now.

I have not had a good week so far.  I had a pain in my left side Friday all day and I couldn't figure out what in the world it was so I just ignored it since I had a party to throw.  It didn't bother me to much on Saturday, I was to busy to care.  Sunday it was bad and Monday at work it was even worse.  I made a dr. appoinment to find out what was going on!  She sent me straight to the emergency room.  Seriously not what I wanted to do with my evening.  I was there for 10 hours!  I have had problems (female things ya know) for years.  I had a hysterectomy 6 years ago but they left my ovaries so I wouldn't go into menopause.  Four years ago they had to take the right ovary because scar tissue had wrapped around it and it was painful.  Well guess what happened again to the left side now???  I do not want to lose this ovary.  I do not want to go into menopause.  I do not want to be in pain either.  UGH.  I am so sick of having all this medical stuff happen to me!   Sometimes I feel like a hypocondriac.  They sent me home with pain meds and told me that I needed to call my gyn asap and see what she wanted to do about it.  I didn't call today.  I am still deciding if I want to live with the pain or if I want to go though menopause.  Neither choice is what I want. 

Tomorrow (well I guesss it would be today now)  I am taking John out to Aquanis college to discuss the scholarship offer they are giving him and to see the campus.  We will be meeting the cross county coach also.  Although I am very excited for this opportunity for John I am scared to.  John and Josh are my babies and the thought of them leaving is about to drive me nuts. I am still having a hard time with Rob being gone and I think he is mad at me for calling him 6 times today to see how he is!

Sometimes being a Mom is really hard.  I don't want to let them go but I don't want them here forever either.  Wow I am having alot of mind battles today!  I think I need to go to sleep and try to think about everything with a clearer head.  I know my problems seem trivial compared to what others here in jland are going though and I am sorry for whining!!!  Have a great night

9 comments:

pixiedustnme said...

Aw!  Dang, if you didn't have such a great house I'd say you should move to this side of the state.  But then again, I need a place to vacation later this summer, so stay put ;-)

stupidsheetguy said...

Being a Mom is hard enough at this point, with all those changes going on, but you sure didn't need "being a woman" to be hard right now, too. I hope life eases up on you a bit and soon.

jckfrstross said...

i had a hyterectomy 8yrs ago and it took them 4 tries to get it right. i had them leave the overies too. wish they wouldn't have. Call the doc menopause is not that bad

Deb

ekgillen said...

Call the doctor!!!!  Noone should live in pain. :)
Gillie

siennastarr said...

Linda, are you afraid to go through Menopause because of all the things you've heard about it in the past?  You know I had a complete hysterectomy when I was 42, because I had Ovarian Cancer, right?  Well.. of course that put me right into early menopause, and I couldn't event any HRT, because Cancer tends to feed off of estrogen.  But, you know?  It wasn't that bad.  Yes, I had some hot flashes, and night sweats, but they really weren't that big of a deal.  A bit uncomfortable, but nothing major.  At least you would be able to take HRT, which would alleviate most of those symptoms.  I would really think long and hard about just having that ovary removed, versus being in pain all the time.  Menopause is really not that bad.. and this is coming from someone who was not able to take anything to get rid of all the symptoms that accompany the big M!

Hugs
jackie


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bookncoffee said...

Hi there.  I sure hope you go find out what is wrong if that pain is still persistent.  Pain is there for a reason...
TAke care.
Sonya

mamadozier3 said...

I completely understand where you are coming from, but all mine are still home. I fear that day I have to let Matthew go on his own. You have (what I have read) a wonderful husband and he is so good to you, you should have no worries PLUS you have your grandchild.
About the menopause...yuk, I can not imagine what it is like. But you have to do what is best for you AND your family...good luck and I will keep you in my thoughts...
Lenise

princesssaurora said...

Linda... please call your doc.  What if it is something different??? You need to a have lower abdomen ct scan or an ultrasound and soon.  PLEASE.  Sending prayers...

{{ Hugs over Robbie }}} I know your other kids will keep you hoppin' but it must be hard.

be well,
Dawn

thegirlnexdoor77 said...

Okay...I remember reading this now..so sorry that you will have to go through the surgery and bet you are tired of the whole mess!  Big hugs and prayers! TerryANn