This graphic is wonderful. All full of color and happiness, which is what I need alot of right now. I am not sure what is going on with me but I sure am not my normal self. I think there is just to many changes going on around me lately. I have been though many many changes in my life and I have always been fine with them. I think I am having a hard time with all of these new changes is because I am not in control of them. I always made the decisions before about the changes that were going to be made. Now I don't have that control anymore. The kids are growing up (as they should) and they are able to make thier own choices. Manda (my oldest) told me that I just want to have my kids around me. That is probably true. My kids have been the only thing that has stayed constant in my life for the last 23 years! It is more than that though. I was working at the Fowlerville Fair the other day for the resort that I work at and I saw a man and woman there who had four little boys with them and it reminded me of when my boys were all that young and I was constantly chasing them. I realized that those days were gone forever for me. That bothers me. I am not sad about getting older, that doesn't bother me. I just wish that my time with my "little" boys and my "little" girl had been longer. It went by so fast. I didn't even realize as it went by that someday I was going to miss it. In fact I wanted them to walk, talk, go to school, learn to drive, as fast as they wanted to!! Now I sit back and take a deep breathe and realize it is gone for good now. Yes I will have it with my grandkids and yes I love my husband and am really looking forward to the time that we will be able to spend alone together now but................I miss those little kids of mine. I wish I could impress upon parents who have young ones how important these times are but I know that they feel alot like I felt when I was in the midst of raising them....hurried, tired, worn out. I guess I never really believed that I would get to the point where I would be understanding all those things my mother told me!! LOL!! I think each day I realize more and more the importance of slowing down and enjoying more. I think I am getting way to sappy!!!