Sunday, September 30, 2007

Aiden Tyler Johnson

I was not happy when Jeremy told me that Heather was going to have a baby.  Jeremy was only 18  and Heather was only 16.  This wasn't the way I had wanted his life to go.  But sometimes (who am I kidding, most of the time) things don't go the way we dream them up in our heads for our children.  They are, after all, human beings with minds of thier own, and they don't always want to listen to what Mom and Dad have to say.  So I had to get used to the idea that I was going to be a Grandma.  And I did. I went an ultrasound appointment with Heather and Jeremy and found out that he was a boy.  I fell in love with him that day. I could see him right there on the screen and although I couldn't hold him yet, I loved him.  The due date was November 7th, which is my birthday.  But it didn't turn out that way.  I got a phone call at work on September 30th.  Heather's dr. said she needed to go to the hospital right away.  She needed to have the baby by csection, her blood pressure was to high and they couldn't get it down, the baby needed to come out.  I flew to the hospital they sent her to.  She was supposed to have him at the hospital I work at but the other one was closer that so that was where she went.  It seemed like many hours that we waited but I know that it wasn't.  I got to see Heather before they took her back and I got to see Jeremy all dressed up in scrubs so he could go in and see his son born.  I was sitting out in the waiting room and I said to Heather's mom.  So his birthday is going to be September 30th.  And it hit was the day my mom had died.  I had tried so hard to block that day out, it was such a sad day to me and I had managed to not think about it all day, till I said it.  How could Aiden be coming six weeks early?  How could it be the exact day my mom had died on?  Because she didn't want it to be a sad day anymore....................

I will never foget Jeremy coming out of that room.  I will never forget the look on his face.  He was so proud.  I cried!  Seeing your child become a parent is well it is just amazing.  Aiden was in the hospital for 3 weeks, he was so little!  He was a huge fighter though and the day he came home was wonderful.  He still is a little fighter! 




pixiedustnme said...

wow, what a way to start out in this world.  I'll be the year just went by in a blink :-)  Here's to many, many more birthdays with Grandma!

my3gifts said...

Happy Birthday to your sweet Aiden!! There's no doubt how much you love him!! God Bless

princesssaurora said...

Awww... absolutely a gift from your MOM!  Awesome... Happy Birthday Aiden!

be well,

mamadozier3 said...

wow Linda that was such an amazing entry...God moves in many ways and I think that he moved your mother and Aiden just like you described!!

crazybabygirl716 said...

Thats amazing. I always find it crazy when things work out that way. You may have lost, but gained just as much! Bet your the greatest grandma he could have!!

cvgflydis said...

Oh man~made me well up with tears. Your Momma wanted you to remember September 30 for your grandson, not her passing.
My mom died September 6th, 2006.......but I have decided to call it her "Re"birthday.  It's so hard losing your Mom and harder dealing with huge milestones without her.
I don't really know how I came upon your journal, but glad I did!

nay0114 said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel.. only my daughter was 16yo when she was pregnant. I have a grandson too. At that time in my life I was having such a hard time previously I had lost three people to cancer my husband's grandparents and my mother. It was a awful time for me. I prayed to God that I wanted to die. Instead, he sent me an beautiful angel I now know as my grandson. My days are filled with laughter and smiles now.
I loved hearing your story because it was just like how I was. I do believe that my family sent that baby to us for healing we all needed it. As I believe you are right your mother did send that baby to make it a happy day.
Take care, Chrissie